Love isn't supposed to hurt like this, but I can't stop crying. I think about it daily and every time it just hurts worse. I thought heartbreak was just a figure of speech until I felt the pain in my chest, right under my rib cage on the left side. For some reason the pain won't go away.
Love is the reason I'm awake past midnight writing this. I can't find a word that really describes the feeling, but sometimes words just get in the way anyway.
Tell me, is there someone out there who will love me no matter what? Because that's all I want right now. Someone to always love me. Even when my hair isn't done and and my eyes are red from crying. Even when I'm wearing pajamas and no makeup. Even when I eat big firsts and bigger seconds and still go back for thirds. Even when I make mistakes. So tell me.
Tell me what to do when my heart is breaking but he isn't there because he's desperately in love with someone else and I think I saw them holding hands today. Yesterday. Whatever. Tell me what to do when the tears keep falling without my permission. But most of all just tell me that he's out there somewhere and he's right for me and I'm right for him. Because all I find myself doing right now is crying and waiting. And it gets harder and more painful to keep waiting.
Maybe it is meant to hurt this much.
-From no one in particular
I will tell you that there is someone and he is coming for you and you will be in love forever and ever and ever and ever
ReplyDeleteI understand. One day we will both look back on these stupid boys and wonder why we even bothered.
ReplyDeleteI understand when words cannot used right. I just how I want to give you advice and make it happy but that's not how the words want to be. I enjoy your writing.
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