Unexplained Fears

I looked out over the valley and caught sight of 

something I might call forever

and in the dark I saw the streetlights and houselights 

and the headlights on an endless string of distant highway,

waiting to be severed.

I didn't want you to see them,

but they were there in my eyes,

all my hidden tears

as inside I cried for how much I have missed 

because of all my hidden fears

that have held me back for all these years.

It still echoes in my head, that simple prayer

that caught me in in its glare

and forced me to care

because I can't get this feeling out of my heart

and I don't really want to.

I want it to stay there with me and you

Until the string of lights is broken

and forever can be spoken

Until my hidden tears have dried

and my lying fears subside

And I name this feeling and learn to cope

But I'm pretty sure I'm feeling. hope.

Spent so long believing I never could heal,

spent filling the cracks in my soul with steel,

fighting back doubts, unsure what was real,

I thought I had lost what it takes to feel.

I didn't mean to write this much to you

but we know where we stand

so I'll tell you the truth-

Because of you I counted to ten

and all of a sudden I trusted again.

You came and offered me reprieve,

you came and somehow made me believe.

I think you might be good for me,

and I think you've finally set me free.

I'm trying to say that you pulled me ashore-

and that because of you, I'm not afraid anymore.